Well, I've noticed.
"What have you noticed?" you ask? You didn't ask? Well I'm going to tell you anyway!
I've noticed... that I'm pretty much only using the blog section of this website, and that by the time I'm able to actually release anything I'll probably be able to get a better website than this anyway.
So, for that reason, The Whale Before Water exists, and I'll be using that for all blog things from now on. It's several times better than this website, at least for what I'm using this webs...
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So recently I've been wondering about my name...
Not my gender, I'm as certain about that as I think I can be right now. My name though... Hayley Harisse? I'm not sure about it anymore... I'll keep it until I get another name, of course, but... I can't think of anything.

In unrelated news...
It was my birthday yesterday! I got a laptop! Eat THAT lack-of-privacy!
Now I've got a computer good enough (my old computer had trouble having three tabs open in Firefox), I'm currently playing through an IS...
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Hey look, a new post! Been nearly a month and a half!
(The title is an Imogen Heap reference, by the way)

Before I say anything new and particularly important, I feel the need to say; I do actually miss the recordings of what I wrote the most. To be honest, I musically prefer Helen Trevillion, but there's a chance I'll be able to hear those songs again. Currently I only have my own memory to trust rather than that of a machine, to remember things I've written.

Ok. Here goes the actual post now.

P...
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Earlier this morning (or maybe last night, it was night when I started writing the previous post), I dropped my mp3 player. I've done it loads of times, and it's always survived before now, but now it can't load anything at all, and it ticks occasionally like it's trying to. I've tried resetting it, and the resetting part worked, but it doesn't get past telling me what kind of mp3 player it is. Eventually it comes to this "Recovery Mode" menu, with the choices of "Clean Up" "Format All" "Rel...
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Wow am I late with this one...
(The title is a Genesis reference, by the way)

So recently (like, nearly a month ago, sorry about the delay) I've been thinking about the twin-personality thing.
In the past I've had doubts about it. In all the cases I remember, the names were different, but the people were basically the same. When I had doubts before, it would result in me becoming just one person for a few days, then I'd go back to being two people. Sometimes that would result in another name tur...
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So! The last post was (actually unintentionally) a bit depressing. I want to make this post much more optimistic.

I've been really happy pretty much all day. I think it's because I've been listening to Kirite by Yasunori Mitsuda a lot (which has some of the best violin I've ever heard, by the way). Of all the game soundtracks he's done (that I've heard so far), it probably most resembles Chrono Cross, but definitely not much. It isn't a game soundtrack, but it does have a story (as far as I kn...
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(Nearly a whole month since I last posted...)

You know I said my dad had stopped drinking, well... he recently started again. So far it's been two weekends in a row. (I'm reminded of 'The Great Escape' by Marillion. "Just when I thought I'd seen the last of you, You come here scratching at my door"). It's currently 3:10am, and it's technically Tuesday, but...
Yesterday (Sunday), was... different, to say the least. He came home noticeably drunk, and me and my brother said to my mum that we wante...
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To all my thousands of readers, I present...
a questionnaire that will undoubtedly be all over the internet soon!
So I saw this on Strawberry Utopia, and after filling it out I found that I had caught the virus and was forced to repost it here! If all 20,935 of you could fill it out and put it in the comments, that'd be great.

1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we kn...
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Hooray! It is now possible to comment on blog posts! It was surprisingly easy to figure out too.

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O...k...
I'm not sure why I would've thought getting an LJ was a good idea. I was thinking last night and figured that I don't actually want another blog, or something. I had a reason, I really did!

Edit: Oh, and we're keeping the "y" for Hayley Harisse, just in case there was any ambiguity there.

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(Strictly speaking, it's not a pseudonym within a pseudonym, it's more like a slightly false identity within a temporarily false identity. Kind of).

For the sake of expanding my temporarily false world, I now have an LJ! Through fear of people I know in real life discovering me there, I am pretending to be living in America (but still English! That way I have an excuse for the spellings), and only mentioning half of the music I like. I'm also not going to talk about any real life events of fam...
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Just writing to correct myself here. It's actually only £10 000, not £100 000 like I said yesterday. I'm leaving that there, though, as a reminder to myself to always properly proof-read.
I haven't won yet, by the way.

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(For those who didn't get it, that was a Peter Hammill reference)

Pepsi have a contestmpetition where they (supposedly) give away £100 000 every day. You have to enter the code on the ringpulls of the cans (I think there are codes on bottles too, but I never found them) on the website for a chance to win. The conmpetestition ends soon, and I've been saving up codes for nearly a month. Today I entered 52 codes. That's a lot of ringpulls. Let's hope I win and can finally get a laptop, and maybe...
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I applied for a job at Iceland today, there's a new one coming to my town.
I applied online. There was an "other" option in the gender dropdown menu. I know it's not ideal, but it's definitely still a step forward that (probably) lots of companies haven't taken. Being a closet non-standard gendered person, I still clicked "male"... which, although generally a bad thing, does take me more smoothly to my next points.

I am an Androgyne. That means, if you don't know, that I am between male and fem...
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Here goes a probably long post...
Oh, and the " "s " in the title don't imply that he's not my real father, they mean that I don't think of him as a father. I think of him more as a sort of struggling dictator, who's used to ruling with fear, but people are beginning to stand up, and he's losing the control he once had.
For this whole post, I will be writing as one person, to avoid confusion. So when I say "us" or "we", I'm not just talking about me.

For the first few years of my life, my dad wa...
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Nobody who knows me will be able to tell you how much I love to write things in an almost Shakespearean manner.
I have written a kind of short poem, because my lack of space is frustrating me more than ever this month (maybe it's because it's 2009? I'll explain later).

I am not the lion, the mask, or the cape,
Remove from me these pins, that I may escape,
Do not believe this foul costume,
Yours, and too your perfume,
Uncover the true smell of this cobwebbed room.

I won't explain everything for the r...
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Hopefully you've read the "more about me" section. In fact, if you haven't, read it, because it's probably going to be very important on this site as a whole.

Thought of as one person, we're both genders. So it would be technically correct to call me transgendered. Chard (he doesn't use "Rich") says that he'd probably be transgendered anyway, like if it was all him. I think he'd probably be more male than female.

We think it's important not to think of gender as two separate things, like the co...
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I was woken up this morning by a call from Connexions (at about 11am, though). They want me to go to the job centre in the morning on a Monday or a Tuesday (great idea telling me that Tuesday). What they want to do is find out what sort of jobs I'd want. I'm not going to go, whether it might help or not.
I don't care if they've actually managed to help people before. I don't want their help. I do my own thing. I'll run to them if I ever start struggling to cope without money.
I know, I know, I ...
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Hello new blog! Hello new website! How are things?

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